hello friends! nice to see most of you are still alive and well. i've decided to stop by after a somewhat long absence. *crowd audibly rolls its eyes*
firstly, thank you to all (especially Turbo) for putting up with my past shenanigans. the anonymity of the internet is very precarious, isn't it? i, like many others, couldn't (can't?) handle the responsibility.
i figured, what better way to make my return to wiiunite than a longwinded, cynical, self indulgent thread? a perfect way to capture my internet persona, isn't it.
my girlfriend just broke up with me, about two days ago. we had been dating for about 5 months, which is a damn long time to me. she's the only serious significant other i've ever had. when i was a moody teen I would smirk at the cliche songs about being in love, but I totally understand and connect with them now. unfortunately, i also understand the songs about heartbreak. it really is the ****tiest feeling you can have, aside from the death of a close family member I would say.
you know what the worst part is, to me? call me lazy, but it's the idea of sharing myself so intimately with someone else all over again. little things, like what book I just read, or why 1999 was an amazing year for music, or how I feel about Clarence Thomas, or how I'm just now beginning to appreciate 19th century Russian literature. (just finished The Idiot… pretty awesome) she knew so many little idiosyncrasies about me, and me about her, and I shudder at the thought of going through the motions all over again. it's just exhausting.
to those wondering *crowd sighs*, she just lost interest in me. she said she gets bored with people easily (she just now told me this, for what that's worth). she's like, super lukewarm toward me now. i told her how I missed feeling wanted by her, and she told me she fell out of love with me, etc. etc. you've heard the story a million times.
although i'm sad as hell, my overwhelming feeling is puzzlement, like, I don't get how you can just get bored with someone like that. we did some awesome, intense, stupid things together… how do you lose interest so easily?
what makes love so special I think is the feeling of being totally vulnerable, that this person can completely crush you and leave you for dead if they wanted to, but you trust and have faith that they won't. it's betting your well being on the loyalty of someone else.
i'll get over it, of course, i have no choice. it just really, really, really sucks. the reason i'd never had a gf before her was fear of this feeling, and now here it is.
anyway, on to more important news. kanye west released Yeezus on June 18th. if you haven't heard it, you should listen to it start to finish (it's free on youtube). this album will be viewed decades from now as a stylistic landmark, like Low or Endtroducing… i promise you that.
football season is starting up again!
*self inflicted gunshot wound to the head*
there really is something about september. what an awful month. lmao
well, it's 3 am and i have a tall glass of warm water. i'm gonna watch city of god with the sound off (it's in portuguese so i have to use english subtitles) and listen to illmatic (5 bucks at best buy, total steal, right?)
also, what are your serious opinions on this shirt? got it at goodwill. i really dig it but literally everyone i've asked thinks I look like a goon wearing it. it's some southern comfort hunting shirt lmao. a couple deer, a big tree, what more can a guy ask for?

p.s.s. i'm truly sorry if I ever made anyone angry or upset on here, probably I'm flattering myself, but yeah. most of it was just 2 am internet talk. (2 am internet talk, that could be a song, seriously)
also, what do you guys think of a dog training school called Dogwarts? i've been kicking this idea around for a while.
i have a book idea, too, if you wanna hear it.
thanks!
"I looked at the earth, and it was formless and empty; and at the heavens, and their light was gone." jeremiah 4:23
the bible, for all it's ridiculous BS, can really be beautiful at times. that's my fav bible verse right now.